A story of mine......

2010-01-09T23:40:00.004+08:00

haha i almost forgot i got a blog.

didnt really wanna blog cuz too lazy.

but since now i got nth to do i shall blog.

my holidays going to end soon. 2days more.

sobs. starting a new sem again. goin to pull hair again.

last sem didnt do well. cuz of my sis wedding in the middle of my exams.

if nt i can do better! really! now my 2nd upper class gone. GPA 3.96... argh!

muz work damn hard to get back there. but scare i cant get back there.

then i will be damn damn sad. my hard work for 1.5yrs in uni gone!!!

wad hve i been doing? let me think. darling is back on the 23nov till 15feb.

immediately after 1day of CNY. at least got some angbao...

he working intern at sembcorp. so weekday i only go out at nite for short while.

weekend he need to do his report plus thesis so stay at hme with him. i've been slping...

ahahah. feeling super slpy nowadays. lazy. like no backbone. always want to lie down.

christmas n new yr eve been great to me.

party at manda's hse...exchange gift at manda hse... new yr eve at some nice roof garden to see fireworks... went to zoo with the gals...

receive nice presents from my 2 best friend. exchange gift with sharon joyce...

darling bought me a braun buffel wallet in the end. cuz i dun wanna him to buy a Gucci wallet for me... although i like it alot but i feel it's too ex. unless there's sale.

i'm broke now. cuz yr end sale i swipe card like nobody. dunno where the money go to also.

may be is restaurants christmas gifts my stuff etc...

watching online show at hme save e most. cuz dun need to spend a single cent.

dint hve 21st bdae party cuz of exams. feel so sad. but no choice. i got exams during apr every yr. 2010 also got exams in apr. sobs.

come to think of it... time pass so fast. darling left 1 more sem in aus... but he may be going for MBA after getting working experience. his dad wants him to go... maybe paris? Califonia? haven decide yet.

i still got 1.5yrs to go. study hard!!! i can do it! i need strength!

2009-09-18T23:17:00.002+08:00

Time to blog....
it's been busy past few weeks.
sch starts mean notes accumulation...
muz start to read my notes alr...
went cruise on 12sep-13sep with my sis n bro in law n his family.
i go there juz to eat n see them play in casino.
ok la. nv been to cruise b4 so go see lo. It's free.
so weekend burn... nv study at all. lucky did one of my tut on fri nite.
but my ans is nt much of help... hahaha... juz try nt to feel guilty for nt studying.
everyday come back frm sch so tired alr. dun even feel like reading e notes.
i finished my elective assignment tt is due next wed.
i'm super bad at translation. haha. linguistic is totally nt my cup of tea.
I'm sure gonna S/U my elective this time round.
dun even understand wad he saying.

I cut my hair today. layered it. now is so thin. my heavy long hair is gone.
e person cut for 40mins. nv cut so long b4.
now i juz feel like suddenly lost of hair. so thin.
gonna try the liese bubble dye soon. haahaa
no money go salon dye hair.

went IT show last week to get yuan's eee pc.
n buy my hp ink. cheaper than usual.
but still very ex. every3 week i change one black ink.
I can bring darling pc to sch when i got long break
i cant find a nice sleeve for e pc becuz of its odd size. 11.6"
muz custom make one. where to find? anyone noe?

I finally use the coach small coin/card pouch.
keep for one mth alr. scare i dirty it.
but i like e pouch. nice nice.
wanna go shopping but darling dun allow me to buy clothes etc till he come back on nov.
i so bored. i dun want stay at hme during weekend.
i see others with their bf during weekend. so nice.
i'm alone at hme...sian
i muz wait for another 2mths. so long...
my frens all busy. no one ask me go out alr.
but exams coming soon. muz study le. i hate neurobiology.
so much things to rmb... dun understand also. argh...

darling slping alr... so bored.

2009-08-18T11:22:00.003+08:00

I almost forgot i got a blog.
hahaha. too lazy to blog le.
my brisbane trip entry nt updated yet.
dun think i will cont. see facebk for photos ba.
Now i'm very happy cuz darling is confirmed coming back in mid.nov.
yay!! until feb cuz he managed to get an internship in sg.
when he come back i will be having my exams.
i hate the exam timetable. so lousy. sure die.
muz really study way b4 e exam date.
somemore my sis wedding on the 3rd dec.
i got exam on 30nov, 1,2,4 dec. How to study when her wedding is in between my exams.
This sem lecturers r like turtle. they tok so slow so very long lect. if nt they can complete within 1.5hrs. n they cant form sentences properly.
i hate tt. i wont be able to catch anything if they nv say properly.
this sem i got long breaks on mon... thurs gt long hrs of sch till 830pm (elective)
lucky fri is juz 2hr lect.
later got lect at 330... boring.

2009-07-14T11:02:00.002+08:00

Day 0
I was having terrible gastric after i had supper n watched transformer with manda Sz n fren.
Vomited 3 times in e morning.
I took medicine and i felt better. they say i'm too anxious or nervous.
615pm Sz came to fetch me... bring a big luggage there cuz darling want a new one.
purchase luggage in aus is way too expensive.
had dinner with them at T3 n yiling n daniel came to send me off too.
Farewell to them n fly to brisbane.
the seats for SQ is also very uncomfortable. no choice. tolerate for 7.5hrs.
Day 1.
Reach brisbane airport at 7am.
Darling n edwin came to fetch us.
I'm so happy to see darling. it's been 4mths plus since i last hug him.
Rest at his hse. unpack my stuff, breadfast n off to COLES at westend to buy groceries.
after tt went to watch Transformer with them again.
aus cinema is free seating. so got to reach there early to queue.
but in e end we nt very early too... haha... sat 3 rows from e front.
still okie.theatre is big. good.
tickets there for students is aussie 6.5 adult is 8.5
i'm nt student there so i hve to buy adult ticket.
we watched 3plus show. so ended around 6.
the sky is alr dark at 6pm.
back hme dinner n slp.

Day 2.
Wake up around 7plus bath prepare breakfast
set off at 9plus to YATALA pie.
i love pies but becuz i've gastric i hve no appetite.
eat abit. nice actually.
after tt we drove to DREAMWORLD.
lots of photos taken.
Spongebob sqpants...who lives in the pineapple under the sea...
the rides r fun.
managed to drag darling to sit few rides.
He sat THE CLAW. but nt WIPEOUT
he dun dare to sit 360deg turn.
we went to play AVP. Laser guns n vest
We ran around juz to shoot our enemies down.
I'm ailen. i hve to look for the predators n shoot them down.
score e highest is winner. fun. darling like this.
is photo taking session in dreamworld...
After dreamworld, we went to Pancake house to have dinner.
Their beef burger is nice. Darling ordered tt.
I ordered mushroom crepe. Also nice but abit too creamy.
Their pancakes r special to me cuz sg is juz normal pancakes with maple syrup.
They got strawberry jam with ice cream on top of the pancake.
Edwin n peiwen ordered chocolate pancakes.
However dinner outside was nt cheap. The pancakes cost over aussie 10bucks
Back hme so tired. Bath n slp.

Day 3.
We went strawberry farm... i love the farm.
So nice... full of strawberries... fresh strawberries blended with vanilla ice cream.
Nice nice... darling dun really like. But i like...
The farmer is very friendly. He tell us wad happen to the farm during raining seasons.
Tell us his harvest period...how much he lost when he threw all the strawberries during raining season.
A very nice guy...
Took alot of photos with darling at the farm...

Next stop is glasshouse mountain...
The view on top so nice. But very windy... cold...
We went over to a nearby cafe that sell scones.
I love the scones... although is simple. But is delicious with the handmade
strawberry jam. The owner own the land with alot of mango trees...
I saw a kangaroo there. He is super rich.

After having Devonshire meal, we head to ginger factory...
I hate ginger. Nv will i eat those ginger stuff.
The smell of ginger is super strong in the factory.
Photos with gingerbread man... n i bought gingerbread man cookies n
Ginger bear sweets... I will nv touch one.
We walk over to the macadamia nuts factory.
The nuts r so hard tt it require a special tool to open it up.
I love their sour cream n honey seasame nuts.
Quite expensive. Small packet alr 7bucks.
We can see their process of removing the shells of the nuts etc from glass window...
But we cant go in...
After tt we went over to nougat shop to buy my fav soft chocolate n coffee nougats...
Anyone wants nougat can get from me b4 it run out...

We went to Noosa head beach for awhile b4 we head to Red cliffe for fresh seafood dinner. I love prawns... calamari r nice...
darling as usual eat his fav salmon...
Dunno why he love salmon...
I did a embarrass thing there. They call the no of our receipt n i raise up my hand...
I tot they will serve us. Haha self service...
Darling ask me put down my hand immediately... hahaa.
Back hme bath pack n slp...

Continue day 4 another time... picture haven compress n resize. see facebook if u want. i uploaded all in facebook alr.

2009-07-12T15:42:00.001+08:00

I'm back... i miss him...
i dun wanna come back...
but i cant. muz come back...
haiz...i miss him so much...
updates will be up soon...

2009-06-23T14:23:00.002+08:00

4 more days...
i will be goin to visit my darling
at brisbane australia...
so excited now...
darling finished his exam today.
hope he can do well...
going out soon....

2009-06-18T14:37:00.003+08:00

Jun 17...
my cousins came to ask me help him do colouring.
colour e art piece for charity...
went IKEA with yiling.
i love their meatballs.
very long nv eat alr. think 4mths...
ever since darling left sg.
today his 2nd paper. tml still got paper..jia you...
i bought photo frames from ikea...weighing scale at hme spoilt.
so bought a new one.
went to saycheese to eat cheesecake...
i like their oreo cheesecake. nice. next time ask darling come n eat.
mango sale... wanted to buy shorts usual price 75 now... 49... but abit tight for me.
if get larger size then will be too loose...cutting dun fit me...
bought a barney book for kj. so ex...

jun 18... slack at hme...

2009-06-14T23:34:00.002+08:00

i went out with joyce today. n awhile with sharon..
sharon left while i was eating my food.
I went Lot one to find them. they working there.
it been 1mth plus since i travel to e west
only west area i go is my sch.
i bought shorts from cotton on. but it's too sheer. yiling dun want.
but is only $5. so juz buy. wanted to call manda to ask if she wants.
but she slping. after tt we left CCK to jurong east IMM.
i wanna go daiso. i bought nice gloves for me n yuan.
i bought a pair of socks n a beanie(dunno issit call tt).
i bought a nice pocket tissue holder for manda. there a A on it.
look sweet to me. a cat collar too. manda ask me to help her buy.
a small basket to put all my rubber bands n clips. if nt everytime lose it.
cuz i anyhow throw.
suppose to meet yiling at orchard cuz she wanna go cotton on too.
but in e end her mum ask her to go out hve dinner.
so me n joyce took 52 and go all e way to bishan. super long journey.
super long conversation.
Dinner at MOS burger. dunno wad to eat. thirty wanna drink iced milk tea from MOS.
so decided to eat dinner there. we waited very long for our burgers.
joyce super hungry... haha. i m collecting the Mr men n little miss from 7 eleven.
anyone want to exchange? i got a extra Mr happy. I want any of the little miss.
they look cute... haha.

sat... went flea market with yiling n manda at pit building.
we didnt buy anything. nth caught our eyes.
head to MS to eat long john silver. i ate curry noodles.
so only ordered crunchy shrimps.
shop around MS n dinner at thai express.

fri... went IT SHOW with yiling cuz i need to buy ext. HDD for yuan...
ITB only $150. he say is a cheap deal. but soon it will drop again...
but is heavy n bulky...
head to east coast sushi tei for dinner...
wanted to watch movie at Cine. but we lost our way becuz of ERP.
in e end...
Leisure park for movie. ghost of gf past. quite nice.

2009-06-11T13:43:00.002+08:00

Tues went Kbox@cine with yiling manda n daniel.
student price still okie. $14.50nett. 2-6pm
sing till i almost no voice alr.
Dinner we went to eat seoul garden... very long nv eat le. Sz came too.
cause manda feel like eating bbq food. so we decided to eat tt.
after tt we walk back to cine to see if there is anything to play at level 9.
there is e new bishi bashi machine. quite difficult to play.
but quite fun actually. they wanted to play command n conquer but i dunno how to play
is like throwing money to e bin. maybe i can learn first b4 i play.
so in e end e guys played in e arcade. n e gals juz sit at e sofa outside e arcade.
yiling was so bored tt she went in to play.
We went to Cathay to catch 3D Monster Vs alien. e show was funny. especially e bob. jelly...

e next day i stayed at hme cuz too tired n lazy to go out.
but went out for a talk at kallang mac at night.
dun be sad gal. is alright.. juz let time pass. things will be fine.
i went to buy luggage too... 29"
preparing for 2 weeks trip to brisbane.
yay! so excited. cuz finally i get to hug my darling.
miss him for almost 4mths.
15days to go... yay!!!!

Gathering @ Modesto

2009-06-08T11:36:00.003+08:00

Poly frens gathering at Modesto@Vivocity on 7th Jun
Finally most of them can make it...
very long nv see such a big grp hanging out le.
everyone got their own work sch n army.
very happy to see all of them again.
except for johnny who cannot come. next time muz drag him out le.
Linus Hung ordered a pizza but it turn out to be the BIG CURRY PUFF.
They didnt noe. they tot was normal pizza.
We bought linus a bdae present. A Mp3 (ZEN Xfi).
quite nice. becuz most of them watched most of the recent movies.
Me being e organiser decided nt to watch movie.
In e end they want to watch Hannah Montana... haha...
but some hve to book in early, we ended up shopping at vivo.
Cindy lim n stamford went to Bakerzin.
The guys went over to disturb... The gals went to shop.
Joelle looking for a dress for her dinner. but nth seem nice.
We went M & S to look for joyce. Kim's wrist injured.
Joyce went to fitting rm, kim became greeter. haha.
Kim rebonded her hair. look pretty on her. nice nice.
Oh ya after shopping we went to look for them at the Bakerzin.
Sitting there, toking... oh we saw Stephanie Sun.
they say she nt pretty skinny leg become so ugly etc...
haha Becuz Jiajun drove, so joelle suggested to go orchard see if there is movie for us to watch. no show. so we went for dinner at Xin Wang.
After dinner, the guys hve to go back, book in...
sharon goin to meet bf for dinner with family n
joelle goin back to fetch her niece n nephew.
oh. see them on 20th jun joelle bdae.

2009-05-23T21:48:00.002+08:00

haha. i forgot abt my blog le.
now exams r over. holidays!!!
I'm working until 26MAY and tt it.
i goin to slack at hme till i go find my darling.
juz gotten my results.
I got a C for my physics. SOBS
B for immunology
B+ for Bioinfo, Biochem and Mastering comm.
A- for Virology
A for my elective
my gpa drop. so sad. all becuz of my physics.
now my gpa is from 4.34 to 4.07
lucky still got 4. if nt sian.

tml still got work. sobs.
so tired. my legs aching. hip and shoulder pain.
but i muz tolerate till tues.
2 more working days. and tt it.
after tt i goin to do shopping for my darling.
haha. now sales so can buy! haha.

2009-03-14T22:22:00.002+08:00

i'm super tired right now.
finish reading some of my immunology notes.
mon got mid-term test. muz score if nt exam sure die.
i got alot of online quiz to do. although can do at hme
but i dunno how to do!!! dying soon.
i hate biophysics. argh!!!!!!
i feel i'm so stupid when it come to physics.
i really dunno how to come out with the correct formula to use to calculate.
i think my this module grade will be a D. hope can pass.
i dun wish to repeat.
This sem got 2 tough module. another one is biochem!!
why muz torture me?
everyday i'm either studyin, lookin at tut ans, looking at lect notes, doin assignment reports etc...
there is nt a day tt i nv touch my sch stuff. NO!
i feel so guilty if i juz slack or go out.
so ever since darling left, i only went out twice for dinner outside. n one movie marley n me.
so pathetic rite? i'm always at hme. emo n study.
why my life become like tt?
even when manda ask me for dinner, the next day i got presentation, muz prepare e slides n speech n also do the stupid physic quiz.

Why i choose to study uni?
sometime wish tt i didnt do well in poly then cant get in uni. the most go study part time private.
which is nt so stress in NTU!!! see so many ppl die. STRESS is e cause!!
why life cannot be peaceful n w/o stress?
juz becuz of money!!!! actually i dun mind gettin lower pay with no stress in life.
i juz want peaceful life. the most is i cant do my shoppin often. sacrifice my shopping for a no stress life.

sometime i juz dun wan to think of the stress. juz do wad i can. dun worry abt wad i cant n wad i haven finish.

argh! tml got to study again. my phy quiz haven finish!! duno how to do! HELP!!!!

2009-02-24T18:01:00.004+08:00

It been such a long time since i blog.
totally forgot abt this blognow darling has gone back.
i'm free again. bored.so bored without him. really!
some of u may not noe my feelings.
cuz ur bf is always around.sighs. nvm i shall wait for june to come.
i can go visit him.but only 2 weeks. i rather he is here permanently
than i am able to go holidays.next week got mid term tests.
sian. recess week is juz study week.everyday at hme study.
if he is here, i will only study half day n the other half go out with him.
now he call me everyday bu i still miss him so much.

i spend most of my holidays with him.
and when sch start, i didnt feel stress because he is here and i dint study much.
now stress coming. tests assignments and exams coming in 1mth time.

my bdae land on april. which is my exam period.think may not be celebrating.
or may be a small party at my hse like wad manda said.
darling wont be here for my bdae. i also no mood to celebrate.
but gifts k my frens! this sem is very tough.
got my hatred physics and also biochem which is different from wad i used to learn.
sighs.

Wad i did on valentine's day? let me recall. oh ya i went IKEA with darling.
cuz i miss their meatballs.and we shop around cuz i love ikea stuff.
cute n nice.i bought a doc tray to put my notes.
if not is in a mess everytime.now is neat!
after tt we watch a movie at hme cuz no nice show in theatres.
i think i wont be watchin most of e movies till he come back le.
cuz without him i wont watch movie...

oh ya went out with joyce and yong ling on fri for dinner.
very long nv see yong ling le. took photos with them.
dinner at AMK hub and shopping at junction 8.

I love the photo of him at the airport before he leave sg.so chubby n cute. hhaha.

2009-01-10T20:25:00.002+08:00

I'm super unhappy today.
so many things happened.

we quarrelled over e same thing again.
why they so nosy. bother so much.
i hate them. if nt we wont quarrel over n over again
abt this stupid thing.

sch started for a week le.
e lectures r so chim.dun understand.
die. muz buy textbooks n revise le.
this time round i goin to become even more stress.
ahhhh.......

2008-12-29T17:44:00.002+08:00

today is the release of my exam results.
my first sem in NTU. they didnt state the gpa.
sian. Their grading got so many. one grade for eg. A got 3. A+, A, A-
i got 2A 1A- 2B+ 1B n a P for my lab.
sch starting soon. sian. my crazy days r coming soon.
muz study again. ahhhhhhhhh........

wad i received for christmas?
A tote bag n shorts from manda
A pair of shoes from yiling
A pair of earrings from xmas exchange w joyce n sharon
A backpack from my 2nd sis
A watch from myself. haha
A mango jacket from darling.
n a braun buffel wallet for darling.

I'm done with my CNY clothings. cuz sch starts = no time to play n shop.

2008-12-20T10:59:00.003+08:00

11dec my sister's ROM.
High tea buffet at LAO BEIJING.
17 dec with e gals swimming at jurong east swimming complex.
now i super tan. super dark. haahaa.
it been very long since i go swimming cuz i'm afraid of being very tan.
but no choice got to swim once in a while. we went to play e slides etc.
fun n cheap! unlike wild wild wet.
after swimming we head to IMM. i nv go b4 so ask them go tgt.
daiso is so much better than ps n vivo. i bought so many things i like.
so happy. cheap cheap. haha.

my darling started work alr. office boy in his aunt company.
haha. so bored everyday.
i love to watch little nyonya. so exciting now.
every nite i wont go out cuz i want to watch e show.
christmas coming. any more gifts to get?
it been very long since i receive lots of christmas presents.
always e usual ppl. manda yiling darling sis will give me.
this yr exchanging present with sharon n joyce.
where to go on christmas eve??? any nice places to enjoy this wonderful christmas nite?

2008-12-09T10:25:00.003+08:00

meet up with joyce and sharon on 2dec.
eat shopping. christmas coming.
hve to buy exchange present.
head getting bigger!! dunno wad to buy.
meet yuan fren weiting with him at white dog cafe on 6dec.
nv been there b4. erm the food was okie.
but yuan dun really like.
celebrating sharon bdae with pat they all on 7 dec.
very long nv see them alr.
went to wood's restaurant to hve dinner.
i been goin to vivo for few times in a row.
took a grp photo on tt day. all botak... haha.
they bought sharon a adidas jacket.

i haven meet my 2 gals after my exams.
either they no time or i nt free.
i miss 2 gals. manda dun even reply my msg when i ask her out.
think she nt free.
thurs suppose to meet yiling. but i forgot thurs is my sis ROM.
got to tell her another day. suppose to meet her ytd. but she nt free.
postpone to thurs i nt free. then when both of us is free?
haha.

watch bolt 3D with yuan n frens cuz yiling nt free.
erm think i prefer e normal movie. nt 3D.
cuz got to wear the glasses.
thruout e show u hve to put it on if nt e screen is blur.
no choice got to wear it.
rhino is funny. crazy little hamster in e show.
yuan finally found a bag he like. a bagpack on sale.
i still got 3 presents to buy. n i want to buy things also.
i want slippers from novo. but yuan say i got too many shoes n slippers.
i cant buy. tt slippers very comfy. i want to buy a checkered high waist skirt.
but online sellin a bit steep.
finally i bought a new water bottle. cuz i lost one.

wanted to meet sharon n joyce today
cuz joyce want to celebrate sharon bdae.
her present haven give her yet.
but i too lazy to go out.
wanted to buy her something else but both of us nv find a nice one.
meet her tml or other day ba. both gals still slpin i think.
no one reply me. haha.

wad to buy for darling on christmas?

2008-12-01T21:03:00.002+08:00

Exams r finally over.
having holidays now.
got nth to do. so boring.

my darling is back.
lucky got him. if not i will bored too death.
no job to work. been lookin around.
my darling want to work too.

nth to blog.
so boring.

2008-11-18T18:23:00.002+08:00

physiology paper finished! yay!
i study so long for this paper.
so many things to noe.
crazy lo. now resting. later got to study for acb paper.
i only got one day plus to study finish acb.
which i think is impossible.
cuz i need to slp also cuz paper at 9am.
tt mean i got to leave at 710. reach half hr early.
i will always reach 1/2hr b4 e paper start.
i got to wake up at 6plus.
no time. no time to study.
tonight must study some. haiz.

2008-11-14T20:34:00.002+08:00

today had my first paper.
suppose to meet someone to go to exam hall cuz i dunno how to get there.
in e end i alight and saw someone frm my lect so i followed her.
cuz i'm early. so dun hve to bother someone to go with me.
outside the exam hall, flipping my notes.
i saw all my lect ppl. all toking to their frens.
all askin their frens abt this n tt on e exam.
i look at myself. i got no one to tok to.
all alone outside e hall. lookin at e ppl toking.
i wish i got ppl to tok to too.
i recall e memories of poly life where my frens n me outside the exam venue.
chit chatting asking this n tt.
now everything no longer the same.
m i sad? i am but wad to do.
my frens go for wad they want.

today biostats paper was okie.
but i think i do average ba.
the mcqs i dunno how to do.
all like correct ans.
anyhow choose.
haha. i tot i will hve extra time
but i do until time up.
lucky manage to finish.
today suppose to meet manda for dinner.
but afternn got gastric so decided nt to go.
now resting. goin to study for my other papers later.
if not no time le! jia you! hope things get in fast. if nt i cant finish.
everyone i will jia you cuz i wan to finish this 3 yrs of ntu life.
although is nt so happy there but i will tolerate.
cuz i wan to be strong!

2008-11-08T00:30:00.002+08:00

Exams coming!! in a week time.
faster finish! i'm sick of studyin!
everyday all i do is eat slp n study!
super boring life but i got no choice.
after 27nov i will b a happy gal!
holidays plus my darling is comin back soon.
i need to find part time to earn money
i wan go brisbane next yr.
muz save money le.

this week is hell week to me.
mon felicia lim said she withdraw from sch.
i'm left alone. i super sad.
i cry on my way hme frm sch on mon. after tt i cont to cry...
why all my frens leave me? i dun wish to be alone in sch.
but i got no choice.
tues i cried badly. almost on e verge of giving up sch.
i super stress! i cant get things in!
but my sis mum dad ask me to persevere.
is okie nt to score as long as i can pass n get e degree.
so i decided to cont. i hve to study.
next fri my first paper 14nov.
i been studyin for diff modules.
study study study.
all i do is study.

is been super long since i watch movie or go out for a walk or shopping.
everyday is study. no time for playing relaxing.
i wan to watch madagascar 2 but is exam period.
by e time i finish i dunno still hve ant.
sad. i wan to go out!

2008-10-31T20:22:00.002+08:00

time pass very fast.
one week pass again.
exams getting nearer.
tml muz start studying biostats.
my first paper.
finish writing necessary acb notes.
took so long to write.
next week still got sch.
wonder how to finish studyin all e things.
where got time?

today half day write notes. at nite decided to take a rest.
suppose to go out with sharon n joyce.
but i haven finish writing my notes so nv go.
i feel so tired. i muz tolerate.
but sometime i stress till i burst into tears.
why i'm so weak. i cannot take stress.
so lousy. why others can study uni n dun feel stress?
why i cant b like them? why?
everyday i go sch i see them so happy.
but i so stress. why they like dun feel e stress?

study study study!!!
i miss my darling.
he also studying. study till headache le.
poor thing. dec faster come!

2008-10-27T20:40:00.002+08:00

I feel super stress for the exams.
i dun think i can finish studying so many things
i feel so stress. i feel so slow. hard to understand things suddenly.
i took 3 days to write n read my textbook for 3 chpts of phy
so many things to note so many things to read.
tt 3 chpts to me is e most difficult.
so stress!!! i goin crazy soon.

how can i feel less stressful?
i plan e things i need to study from now till e date of each exam.
not enuff time!!! muz study fast which i feel is impossible.
i need time to rmb n understand so tt things can go into my head!
everyday i need to study. until exam time.
i planned. but i feel so stressful to study everyday!
but i got no choice.

2008-10-23T22:51:00.002+08:00

I feel tt i go to a wrong sch.
a bad sch. lousy sch. lousy systems
lousy lecturers. i hate this sch.
no test marks or papers given back.
how to learn from mistake?
expect us to noe wad we wrong?

i feel sad tt i didnt do well for emcb test.
i study hard for it. but yet i do e same as others.
i feel i getting more stupid.

I meet feli hoo today.
she pass me her textbooks.
i gt to write notes for exams.
eat dinner wif her today at iciban sushi.
cuz got craving for sushi.
n tt e only one with selling more sushi

i feeling better emotionally alr.
i think becuz of some reasons ba.

2008-10-11T21:23:00.004+08:00

I got a guest in my tagboard.
I dunno who is this guest.
i saw e tag. i felt something wrong.
got an uneasy feeling.
i dunno how to describe.
love is simple. but once u break it there will b a scar.

another test coming up on the 23oct.
i got one report to hand in on 21oct, one assignment on 24oct.
i got one week left. report is grp work, only will discuss on mon.
assignment i found n read a paper. goin to do on tues.
i dunno how to critique tt paper.die. anyhow crap.
tml got to read my lecture notes for my test.so many things to noe again.
this few weeks i nt feelin too good.
every morning got gastric problem.
n nowadays i always have headache n feel giddy.
i feel tt i become super weak.
may be is stress n my mood tt cause all these.

m i feelin better emotionally?
ya i think so.no longer crying so easily
.feeling better. changing e way i look at things
looking forward to exams over. n exams over i completed a sem.
having holidays, think i shall go work.dun slack at hme.
earn money to go brisbane spend next yr may/jun
i no longer feel like giving up anymore.i treasure my darling
no longer feel tt i wont b happy w/o him around.
I can still do e things i used to do.
I love him. n tt wad i noe.

I noe he busy so i nv disturb him.
i also reduce my msg sent to him.
i want him to focus on his studies nt feelin distracted.
only when he's resting or free i tok to him for awhile.
after tt i let him do his things.c
uz he also need to relax, watch tv, read comic n slp.
beside spendin his time studying, he also need to rest.
he also need his private time.
last time use to do feel tt havin me he hve to reduce his private time
cuz most of e time he will spend with me.
now i feel tt i very selfish last time.
i dun let him do alot of things cuz i expect him to accompany me.
making da xiao jie pi qi.in order to make him feel happy.
i let him do wad he want.
try nt to b like wad i use to be.

life will juz go on. time pass very fast.
soon sch will finish work will b my life.
turning older n older each yr.
think shld update some photos.
my blog is so dull.

during my study break, went out with e gals!

Taken in sch during lunch. haha.

2008-10-04T16:02:00.002+08:00

erm mon got mb test.
i got to study for it.
i dun like mb. dun feel like studying.
ytd meet sharon joyce for lunch.
we tok alot. now so many frens tell me their stories.
i noe i'm nt e only person having this problem.
in a relationship, somehow there will be a expressive n non-expressive person.
being the non-expressive one will feel tt is okie nt to contact all e time.
as long as we love each other can alr.
usually they dun hve too many actions.
silent... they think tt got things to say then tok nth then dun need to call.
no action doesnt mean dun care or dun love u. becuz they r non expressive.
their words got very deep meanings in it. nt juz surface. u muz really understand them
in order to feel assured.

as for e expressive person. tt person will feel tt if a couple nv contact there is something wrong in e rs. but in fact is nt to e non expressive one.
expressive feel tt is impt to show actions so tt love is there care is there.
no action make them feel tt e partner no longer love them or care abt them.
n start to worry.
expressive need alot of concern frm e partner. need attention.
no reply frm e partner will make them feel very upset.

to e non expressive one, too much msg calls care n concern make them feel stressful n burden.
when they cannot take it they will give up. they feel tt is too much for them to handle.
they will feel tt their partner shld look for someone tt is able to return so much care n concern back to them. trying to let go of their partner to look for someone else. but in fact their partner dont wish to find another person as they feel tt their partner is e right person for them juz tt they got different ways of handling things. as long as one adapt, nth will go wrong. is e same in every couple relationship. seldom to find tt there r both non ones couple n both expressive ones.
i feel tt if both non ones e relationship will be stagnant boring n they wont bother much abt each other. both expressive ones they will take things for granted n too sticky to each other tt their world only contain 2 of them.
being one expressive n one non one, things will b different.
rs shld hve up n down, too smooth something is goin wrong.
so expressive ones learn adapt, non one feel e love frm them n also still love them.
this kind of relationship shld b better although things is slightly harder for e expressive ones.
but to me e expressive ones r willing cuz they love their partner for being who they are.

so in order to maintain a rs. e expressive one muz learn how to understand e non ones n noe
how they feel abt a situation. they cannot keep pestering e non ones. muz lighten their burden
make them feel tt havin this rs is happy. no stress no burden n there is still love n care.
tt why e expressive ones always hve to learn things n understand lot of things along e process.
able to adapt to e non ones behaviours n feelings, adapt to changes.
is usually e expressive ones tt will understand n adapt.
is always a tough process for them but sooner or later they can adapt to it.
n this will really maintain a rs.

i ask expressive n non ppl abt this. their replies are really e same. expressive ones r e ones tt learn n understand during the rs. e non ones r those tt remain e same. they remain e same in their way of dealing with things.

i'm trying to adapt, learn n understand along this rs process.
time is so impt to me. although is difficult but i'm willing to undergo this process
cuz i love him n love e way he is.

2008-09-30T22:56:00.003+08:00

ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh.........................
i dunno wad to do. so sad. i cry frm ytd until today alr.
why she affect me so much? she left. no more studyin with me. i only left 1 fren in my course.
so sad rite? so poor thing. ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh..................

i very long nv feel wad is happy alr.
goin out with frens dun make me any better.
how how how? wad can i do to make myself happy??
i think for now only one thing can. but i cannot do tt thing

today i told him i sometimes thinking of letting him go.
he also think e same as me. upset.
but i tell him as long as he love me i will be okie.
dun let go of me. i will be fine. i need time to adjust to all these things.
new sch environment, being independent n ur absence all these take time to adapt.
pls tolerate me during this period. i need support to cont.
i really pray tt things will go well for him.
no worry no stress. happy living there.
i wan to be happy. anyone can teach me how to be happy?
return to e same old cindy again?

thz manda for buying me ice cream.
i very touched. thx my dear.

2008-09-29T13:59:00.001+08:00

study break over. next week onwards muz also study for mb quiz
n also do biostat assignment soon.

wad i do during this whole week? simply studying.
sat n sun study phy cuz i tot mon goin out with sharon n joyce.
in e end change to thurs. so mon i cont to study phy. so many things to rmb.
things always leak out from my head.
done 3/4 of my mb lab report on tues. take me one whole day.
cuz i hve to find out the expected results. muz finish my lab worksheets also.
This week i went thru my mb notes. all so thick. read chpt 1-5.

Thurs. YAY i went out with sharon and joyce. go suntec eat cheap food.
then we went to take alot of photos.
n guess wad 3gals went to watch horror movie MIRRORS at gv ms.
e cinema is so cold. n tt show is so disgusting. so many eee scenes.
We went flyer to eat popeyes. Take lots of photos at flyer.
Taking photo remind me of me n darling at flyer. Sad.
Haiz. Darling coming back on end of dec. I got nth to do in dec.
I think i hve to work. If nt bored to death.

Nowadays i feel so dull. No mood to do anything.
Every day at hme. If Sharon nv ask me out. Think i’m goin to stay at hme
all the time.

I got something bothering me. I’m afraid of things happening again. So i decided to keep quiet. Maybe i’m juz thinking too much.......

2008-09-20T22:19:00.002+08:00

Now i feel that my life is in total boreness.
everyday wad i do is go sch come back do my sch work
slp wake up then this routine again.
is so boring but i hve no choice cuz i cant stop doing sch work when there is a need.
i wont stop doing juz to play.
i'm nt that kind of person. all shld noe me.
i will study finish first b4 i play.
if nt i will feel so bad n insecure.
i will try to finish some of it before i play.
i super long nv go out the whole day juz to relax.
i feel so upset. can i change e way i m?
cant i be like someone tt will play more than study more when exams come?
i'm sick of this kind of life.
but i juz cant change e way i am. i'm born with this kind of character.
i will hve to study all e way till my dec holidays come.
cuz i got test almost everyweek after sch reopen.
i got to do my stats assignment, lab report etc.
i think i become slow in learning n doing things.

i feel so lonely. for one yr plus darling always beside me when i'm studying.
kind of use to it.
but now i hve to study by myself again.
so boring.
now every weekend i always stay at hme do my sch work or write notes.
staying at hme juz to do my work if not i will b too tired to go out.
reading others' blog make me feel so jealous.
they got so many events happening.
feel so happy for them. then me? at hme almost all e time except goin sch.
i used to hve e urge to go out but now dun hve.
rest at hme becoming a big part of my life.
now ppl ask me go out i feel either too tired or lazy to go out.
juz like e bbq ytd. i feel like goin but too tired to go.
in e end i stay at hme n darling tok to me for awhile.
think sch will be e biggest part of my life now.
friends getting lesser darling so far, so sch is e only thing i doin now.
i dun wish things to be like tt.
sighs...

2008-09-13T23:02:00.002+08:00

Sch getting more n more busy.
tutorials, assignments n self study.
cuz common test coming on 29sep.
alot to study. but i blur at some parts of lect.
wad to do. so many things to absorb at e same time.
i couldnt image how will i be when exams come.
first sem in NTU. n the worst thing is i'm yr 2.
i dunno how the exam sys is like. scary.

Things r getting better between e 2 of us.
although we talk lesser to each other,
but i can feel tt we r closer. nt so drifted apart.
I feel glad tt we made a right choice.
but hope things remain e same for e next 1yr plus.
almost 3 mths passed.
he is busy with his sch work. i'm busy with mine.
UNI is so much different from poly.
i enjoyed poly alot. but nt UNI.
maybe ppl tend to take e easy way out
when things get difficult ppl will retreat n escape frm e problem
although is wrong but tt nature.

boring life boring me.

2008-09-07T20:29:00.001+08:00

haha. i read tiff blog.
so went to do the love language test.

Your Detailed Results:
Quality Time: 9
Physical Touch: 8
Words of Affirmation: 5
Receiving Gifts: 4
Acts of Service: 3

From the results i think i really need quality time.
haha nvm la. i got tok to him. hehe.

2008-09-05T23:50:00.000+08:00

Today met sharon n joyce for lunch.
So happy to see them. Miss them.
A lot of things to say. Haha. Making fun of each other.
Think I very long nv so happy le.
Today seem to be the happiest for this 2 mth plus.
We ate candanain pizza in sch today. 3 of us share one set.
Haha after tt when we r leaving joyce say something so funny.
She say can u move? I say can then I move left n right. Haha
She juz asking us to move n go for lect. Haha

So funny. Meet yiling at orchard. We ate sushi tei. Haha.
After tt we went manda hse to play Nintendo wii. Haha
Quite fun but is a very tiring game. Haha.
Keep laughing n enjoy them acc me at nite.
Then I wont anyhow think.
Nowadays jay chou songs r my fav.
All abt love. Slow songs.
Tt day tok to yiling for quite long.
She ask me nt to give up.
I decided nt to give up.
I will jia you. U also muz jia you k.

2008-09-03T20:33:00.002+08:00

I dunno wad happen to me.
i shld b happy tt we r still tgt.
but i feel very sad.
I feel tt we r so drifted apart.
no longer the same us.
all hve changed.
although he nv leave me but i cant feel his love
I feel like i'm juz a fren to him.
maybe i'm someone tt need his attention.
but i dun get any. i wan to tok to him
but i scare i disturb him doin his work.
if not later he say he cannot focus again.

so many things changed. change until i cannot accept.
every nite i will feel down. maybe is becuz i'm alone.
all e tots will keep coming.
sharon manda ask me dun let go.
I love him till i cannot take it if i'm being left alone.
i feel so empty. so tired. dunno wad to do next.

now i dun wish nite to come.
use to tok to him every nite. can hear his voice
now on msn also little bit only. only ask him things tt he can ans in a simple way.
he busy. so cannot reply long long.
cuz i noe he is tired of toking. he dun like to tok on phone.
now things changed so i can only tok to him on msn.
cuz he will b busy doin his work.
i try nt to disturb him by askin him to call me
i wont dare too.
i cant control my tears. so depressed.
i try to b happy in e day. nt to upset anyone.
shld i stay on? can i hold on to this rs?

2008-09-01T19:19:00.002+08:00

it been a long time since i blog.
sch started for few weeks le.
things start to pile up alr.
I only got 2 frens in sch. feli hoo n lim.
i feel very upset. cuz i usually clique with my guys frens.
but now i hve to stay with 2 fren in sch for 3yrs.
i feel so sad. i hate uni life. although i hve frens frm other courses
but i wont get to see them often.
i miss everyone.
my good frens. those tt take care of me always.

many things happened suddenly. i cant take it.
tt why i say i emotional breakdown.
i can only keep it to myself.
no longer can show it out.
so suddenly tt within one day my precious change so much.
i'm sorry i add stress on u. i'm sorry.
he say he cannot take care of me. unfair to me.
a better guy may be out there.
he want to give up. only 2 mths he want to give up le.
his sch stress my stress make him suffocated.
i'm so depressed. no matter wad i say he nt listening.
why ppl give up so easily?
i try nt to bother him too much. nt to stress him. nt to be so emotional.
nt to this n that............is cont on n on.
he say he will try. i feel so scare. wad if he change his mind again?
really very very scare. i dunno wad to do?
shld i give him up too? shld i let him go?
shld i? but i dun wish too. I love him. I want my darling.
can i trust him? shld i try too?
I collapsing soon. I really dunno how.
my heart so pain. so pain. can anyone help me?

2008-08-04T21:34:00.002+08:00

Today is my first day of univerisity life.
Going to study in NTU for 3 yrs.
i got total of 7 core modules this sem
n i took a prescibed elective. Fundemental of management.
dunno want to drop ant. cuz no one acc me.
my frens all got no vacancy for those we like.
sian. freshies r not to advantage.
wad to do.

today only got lect. week 2 will hve lab n tutorials,
2hrs of lect is nt tt gd. boring. yr 2 all got their own friends.
i went to sharon hostel to slack awhile.
pass her some biscuits.
she need to pack her stuff n clean the rm.
haha. sweep n mop. i teach her how to go to some places in NTU.
everyone so new to NTU.

Darling also muz adapt to QUT life.
he busy studying. muz go lib borrow bks to study.
he got to work hard.
miss him alot. dec faster come.
keep telling manda n yiling dec faster come.
now sch start life will b busy think will hve lesser time toking to darling.
hope we will still love each other although we dun get to see each other.

2008-07-15T22:08:00.003+08:00

this whole july is my slacking month.
darling not with me.
i got nth to do. everyday stay at hme.
want to save some money to go aus find darling.
he dun hve to save so much money for me.
dec faster come. i wan to visit darling.
almost all my frens went army.
feel so lonely. from this moment on i'm alone.

sch starting in weeks time.
muz study hard again.
new sch new environment new frens.
wad to do is the everyday life thing to noe new ppl.
sometimes juz feel lazy to make frens.
but without frens life is so boring.
without my darling is worst.
haiz... sighs....
i sent darling a mail. but haven reach him yet.
hope he will receive soon.

2008-06-28T11:38:00.002+08:00

my darling is in brisbane now.
i miss him alot.
tears rolling down these few days.
when he call me i'm so happy.
always wanted to hear his voice.
he's busy looking for house these few days.
bank statement not really so cannot rent hse yet.
i really hope dec faster come.
i wan to visit him.
now i'm so lonely.

before he fly to brisbane
i went taiwan with my sis n frens.
haven upload the photos yet.
taiwan was fun. eat n shop all u wan.
haha. a new experience.
we visit only the city areas.
like taipei 101, newyork newyork, yong kang jie for their "ICE MONSTER"
Wu fen pu for my shopping. some place for MA LA steamboat.
There still got departmental store SOGO. ours close down long ago.
we went to a new night market. i dunno e name. haha. we eat n drink.
n we went to famous SHILIN night market. there got so many to buy n eat.
cuz we went there the last day so i got not enough money to buy. sad.
raining in taiwan all the time when i'm there. we went to buy umbrella.haha.
tt why i didnt go to the nice scenary places. is okie.
maybe becuz i didnt go with my darling so not really tt fun.
i bought the famous tai yang bing. haha.
i love their fruit juices n tibits.

my next destination is brisbane.
here i come.

2008-06-03T09:59:00.008+08:00

My grad ceremony is over
i got diploma with merit in Biotechnology
we took so many photos...
yuan n my sec sis came to support me.

now finally my Robinsons expo & CP job is over.
i will miss my frenz there.
tina wrote almost everyone a card.
so sweet of her.
slacking time till i fly to taiwan.
after tt goin to acc yuan till he fly off.
sobs.
gotta pack all my stuff for the sale on jun 14 for manda.
haha.

i will miss all of them...

2008-05-17T00:19:00.002+08:00

it been a long time since i blog.
busy with my work.
i left 3days at CP robinsons.
kinda of goin to miss the ppl there.
my dept ppl are nice unlike manda.
i love my supervisor. she is so nice n cute.
my manager is good too.
i goin over to expo to work.
my senior say it will be fun there unlike CP.
haha. she goin too. i got acc. but she is perm staff
maybe goin to be diff dept or something.
i will miss the promoters.
although is juz a mth at CP.
i love working wif nice ppl.

i took my grad attire on tues wif yuan
my off day.
yuan bought his winter clothings.
he is leaving for aust soon.
will miss him lot lots.
i'm goin taiwan wif my sis n frens on jun 14.
after i come backk
i onli left 3days wif yuan b4 he leave sg.
he leaving on 22 jun.
after he leave i will be lookin for jobs again.
if not i will be bored to death w/o him n job.

earning money for my taiwan n aust trip.

2008-04-23T23:48:00.002+08:00

Today work was tiring.
it been so ling since i stand for long hrs at work.
obviously my first day of work was boring.
i was do cashiering e whole day cuz no sale yet so no ppl
meeting all sort of customers at the till.
few black face ones.
wad to do.
get to noe 2 new temp staff today.
oh ya i'm working at lingerie dept.
all e bras, panties n aunties.
boring dept where i can onli see ladies.
no guys will come often to this dept.
but lucky my sr staff n supervisor were okie.
nice ppl i think. haven see their true colours yet.
hahaha.
26more days of work then i will move on to EXPO

i went for training wif manda ytd. stupid orientation.
a lady giving e talk.
i dun like her.
met yiling for lunch at mac BK
she wan to study there n came my hse to print notes
after tt at nite i went to teach tuition at 7
coral got too many hmewk tt i teach until 10.
so tiring. cracking my brain to solve those she dunno.
which were alot. she got 3 full maths papers to do.
crazy teacher.
got my tuition fees for 2 1/2 lessons.
got to pass yiling hers too.

yuan still at taipei.
miss him so much.
he didnt call back.

working at 2pm tml.
manda too.
slpin time.

2008-04-20T20:00:00.002+08:00

yuan left sg to taipei at 1pm.
went to send him off in the morning.
tuition cancelled.
got to go for training on tml.
n i will be bored for 7days.
yuan not around until sun.

My birthday celebration!

2008-04-19T11:09:00.007+08:00

Fri 18 APR
Yuan bought me one of my fav cakes frm 4 leaves
Nice cake.it been a long time since i eat.
After tt we went to watch movie at ps
THE FORBIDDEN KINGDOM
the show was okie only. not very nice.
Yiling came my hse with sunflowers!
weee. so happy.
Yuan brought the 3 gals to THE SQUARE at NOVOTEL.
International buffet cost 45+++
i nv had this kind of buffet at hotel b4.
was a new feeling.
the food was okie.
Fondue my fav. forgot to take a photo of it.
manda help me n yuan took a photo using polaroid cam.
We went for a walk at clarke quay after dinner
In the end we landed up at MOS
cuz is free entry for the 2 gals.
i cant get free entry cuz they noe i graduated.
manda say my card look old. tt why.
so me n yuan got to pay
we got 2 free drinks.
ordered vodka lime n cranberry.
tt my first time in a club.
they brought me in.
we didnt dance cuz is too early. no ppl yet
we juz went in for a walk.
yuan had to duty the next morning.
so we went back early.

My bdae cake! 2 Big candles! ahhhh.... turning older.sunflowers on my bdae!Cakes... look nice but nt very nice actually.Taken with manda cam.The three gals!

mE n yuan at MOS

2008-04-17T13:51:00.000+08:00

Tml is my birthday!
yay!!

2008-04-15T16:33:00.002+08:00

Today was a slacking day at hme.
yuan came to my place for awhile b4 he go for his night shift duty.
ytd went for robinsons briefing with manda.
i had to go training on 21 n 22 apr n i start work on 23apr.
Centrepoint Robinsons!
hope to be the same dept as manda, but i dun think so
cuz one of our training is diff date.
ahhhhh!

i acc manda to SIM to apply for her degree course.
my usual lunch place at SIM canteen.
miss e days at sch.
How's everyone? miss them alot.
i will onli start sch on 4 Aug.
which is still a long way.
i work until 3 June.
acc yuan till 22 June cuz he's flying on 22 june.
after tt i got nth to do!
die die.... i'm goin to bored to death.
anyone got jobs available on July?
pls intro me.

met joshua ytd for a talk.
it been so long since i met him.
a long chit chat session with him.
i really miss sec & poly life.
wonder how will Uni life be like?

My bdae coming in 3days time.
we r goin to The square at Novotel to hve international buffet!
yay!!!

2008-04-11T22:07:00.003+08:00

I'm so happy today.
I received letter frm Ngee ann ytd to inform me on the grad ceremony.
n also one more letter to tell me tt i got a acad award, dipolma with merit.
Top 10% in my course.
I received letter frm NTU informing me tt i'm accepted to Biological sci course
Direct entry to yr 2, tt mean i onli hve to study 3 instead of 4 yrs to get my Honour degree.
so happy.
Recently helping yiling to replace her position for tuition due to her coming exams.
got to recap pri 6 maths.

2008-04-02T13:55:00.002+08:00

slackin at hme so decided to blog.
manda bdae coming.
my bdae coming too!!
got to go for robinsons briefing on 14 apr, my sis n sg bdae
haha...
now quite worried abt my application results.
cuz many received calls for interview.
but i dun hve. issit they dun wan me?
or they post me letter?
hope i will receive letter or call soon.
i receive call frm MOE which is my fourth choice.
but i rejected it.
i wan receive letter or call frm NTU.

i am so unhappy.
but he dun understand.

2008-03-25T23:44:00.002+08:00

hahaha... i almost forgot tt i hve a blog.
so dead here. now i'm blogging.
now i hve graduated from ngee ann biotechnology course.
my results were good. Graduating gpa of 3.84.
now i'm pursuing a higher level which is NTU biological sci.
waiting for the application results.
Searching for jobs.
tml goin for an interview.
hope can get e job.
NO money mean no shopping.
hahaha.

wad hve i been doin?
slacking at hme, goin out wif frens n my yuan.
ytd was my 1yr anniverary wif yuan.
we went for a lesser fried n oily restaurant
Sushi tei, cuz yuan is coughin badly.
No cold, fried or oily stuff for him.
we wanted to watch song of e sea at sentosa
but we were unlucky cuz it rain.
ended up at the skypark takin photos n we went back.
he wanted to hve e post celebration bue to e rain.
but is okie over is over.
wanna see wad i did for him? will update soon.
He bought me webcam,heels n a handbag.
so nice of him. love him so much.

time fly fast with him. One yr alr.
soon he will fly over to brisbane to take his degree.
i gotta miss him.

My bdae is coming.
presents. i love presents!
manda bdae coming too!

yuan goin taipei for holidays wif his army frens.
7days. goin on the 20th apr.
gotta ask him buy things for me.
YAY!!!

This week will be busy for me.
might be meeting sharon n lim...
meeting yuan on thurs for meatballs at ikea!
tml goin for interview wif manda.
sun meeting rayner for dinner.
i love to meet my friends.
I miss everyone so much!
can ask me out for dinner if u r free.

2008-01-18T22:16:00.000+08:00

it been a long time since i blog.
i m so busy.
busy wif reports ppt assignments
n e worst is baby kai jie.
he make me lose my slp.
my eyes getting darker.
i cant concentrate my work.
cuz he cries n e hse turn upside down.
i feel so stressful nowadays.
n i dun wan to go hme cuz baby is around.
got hme but dun feel like going back.
anyone let me stay for a night at ur hse can tell me.
cuz my hse no longer is peaceful.

2007-12-14T23:11:00.000+08:00

it's been one month since i blog.
my attachment was finally over.
i'm busy writing my reports now.
n at e same time enjoying this festive season.

went to sentosa with yuan on 2 dec.
is a sunday. so many ppl goin sentosa too.
we took the sentosa train express.
is e 2nd time i take the train.
one time was on my bdae.
we went to take skyride.
first time taking. quite nice.
high up in e air.
yuan was scare at first. so timid.
enjoying the breeze with him.
after tt we went to play luge. was fun after all.
we went over to the beach after the ride.
sitting near the beach. toking to him abt my sec sch life at sentosa.
cuz we saw a bunch of sec sch kids playin frisbe.

my nephew will be staying over my hse for mths.
there will be a maid at hme lookin after him.
pray hard tt he will be well behave. dun keep crying.
tml is his 1st mth celebration.
many ppl will be coming my place.

today went out with yiling.
shopping at ms.
raining so heavily.
my slippers was so slippery tt i slipped b4 i enter ms.
so painful.
yiling went to develop photos. i use my hp to wash photos.
happy tt i can make album.
been wanting to buy a havaianas slippers but think is ex.
i finally bought it today. but yet i'm not happy.

i'm sad. super sad.

2007-11-14T15:33:00.000+08:00

It been a long long time since i blogged.
sat on the 10nov, was horrible.
i had a small ear operation at tan-teoh clinic n surgery.
i got a lump filled with pus behind my right ear lobe.
it been there for quite some time, but it was very small still.
thurs n fri e lump get bigger till my ear was swollen n i got headache.
the lump was super red tt i had no choice but to see doc on sat morning.
e doc say it muz be removed immediately if not i will hve high fever.
may be is infection.
when she mention e word operation, my heart almost pop out.
since young i nv really had such thing happening to me.
she ask me to take painkiller immediately before the operation start.
i hate to take medicine. i had to take 5 tablets. oh my god.
no one with me. yuan went to work on sat.
i so scare till i cry. but i wipe my tears cuz too many ppl there.
injection at my ear.so scary. doc didnt mention there's injection.
no choice i hve to tolerate.
the operation was painful. i hve to clean n change my dressing everyday at e clinic.
sun was my cousin wedding. held at his hse.
i ask yuan to acc me to change my ear dressing b4 goin down for e wedding.
changing of dressing was also painful.
yuan went to meet his fren for pool session.

life was so terrible for me these few days.
sun nite after e wedding, i had a terrible stomache.
cuz i hve to take medicine for my ear operation, i ate a big bao.
after tt i went to slp. at 10plus i wake up n vomit badly.
continuous vomited for more than 6times. at tt moment i feel so so terrible.
i had high fever too.
e next day i need to change dressing n still need to see doc.
doc gave me medicine for my gastric. my fever kept rising. frm 37.7 to 38.4
gastric medicine didnt cure my problem. i vomited again.
i took 3 days mc.
i'm too weak to walk.
i ate very very little everyday cuz i puke when i eat.
yuan say i lose weight.
e worst thing is i cant bath properly cuz i got dressing at my ear. nurse advise not to bath near e ear. tt mean i cant wash my hair properly.
tilting my head to wash everyday. so tiring
now i'm feeling better but still weak.
tml got to go attachment again.

2007-10-22T13:48:00.000+08:00

now i'm at attachment blogging.
is so boring right now.
i got nothing to do except to write my fyp draft report.
i somehow feel abit headache suddenly.
wad to do muz ta han till 5pm.
morning experiments i'm done with it.
this few days got nothing much to do.
no long hrs expt.

fri went out wif e 2 gals after my attachment.
Orchard is e usual place we gang out.
ate fish n co wif them. we request to change e calamari to fried ones.
but they gave us e normal one, so we ask e waitress
guess wad they gave us a pan of fried ones for free.
so nice. seafood platter for 2, our usual dish.
haha. went to far east to look for manda's VANS shoes.
but in e end she bought it at heeren.
we sat at e cafe for chit chat.
3 of us were so tired. n i'm carrying my laptop all around.

sat went out wif yuan.
We went marina sq to watch superbad.
is funny but too crappy.
we went to buy double chocolate donut at sun tec.
he loves donuts.
haha. we walk thru millemia walk to get back to ms.
we went candy empire but they no longer selling wonka bars.
he miss wonka bars. me too.
dinner at lavender food court again.
i love e wanton noodles.
this time round he onli queue for 20mins.
yiling called n wanted to meet me.
so i meet her at boon keng mac.
yuan went back hme.
we tok till 10plus then go back.
she asked yuan for safra card.
n he came over to pass to her.
so nice of him.
love him so much. haha.

sun. went church n stay at hme e rest of e day.
he meet his army fren at cafe cartel for dinner.
so nv meet him. fish tycoon now n then.
haha

2007-10-07T17:18:00.000+08:00

ytd meet yuan...
we went ikea to hve lunch.
i bought my hug hug pillow. hehe.
i love ikea meatballs n chicken wings.
We ordered 15 meatballs. 6 chicken wings.
i ate 2, he ate 4. He said no more chicken wings for 2 weeks.
haha. we went to watch resident evil at tamp mall.
erm okie only. e show is not as exciting as last 2.

We went bras basah popular to get yuan book.
but we cant find wad he wants
we take bus to lavender food sq to wat e famous wan ton mee.
is nice. but too little. n yuan queue for 40mins.
waited for him for so long.
but poor boy. help me queue for so long.

Fri went out wif yiling n manda.
it been so long since 3 of us out tgt.
cuz yiling is either wif me or with manda.
we stationed at ps mac cuz i brought laptop to attachment.
They viewed my photos n laughed at my sec 2 photos.
so bad. haha.
n my online ordered bag is still not here yet.
manda say tt organiser may be conning our money
cuz she heard alot of bad things abt this organiser.
die. she cheated my money.
i wan my bucket bag

2007-09-28T23:29:00.000+08:00

meet yiling at bugis today.
yuan is sick so didnt wan him to go out
muz rest at hme.
very long nv shop with yiling alr.
hve a chit chat session wif her at mac.
she bought a nice bag at a cheap price.
i like tt bag too. but i bought one similar one online.
so didnt buy.
we can exchange our bags ya.
haha.

My attachment place one of the gel capture photo sys spoilt.
i cant conduct my expt next mon. got to wait cuz i cant take gel photo.
supervisors ask me to call the distributor. so i called
yet the no on the sys is no longer in use.
so i went online to search and called the phone directory.
there no such company.
haha. so i approach my lecturer. thx to him.
i noe wad to do.
i called the person frm another company
product specialist coming on mon morning to check.
so got to wait.

Tml goin to visit my dearest sick boy.

2007-09-22T10:31:00.000+08:00

Updates of photos
14 sept...
lim bdae celebration at settlers cafe

so serious playing game.

2007-09-21T20:11:00.000+08:00

it's been a long time since i blog.
very tired these few weeks cuz i got attachment.
NTU is so far... traveling time will make me waste almost 3hrs.
sis bought things for me frm HK. yay!!!

wad happen these few weeks?
let me recall...
erm... watched no reservation n rogue assassin.
spending sun wif yuan....
sat i rot at hme cuz yuan went back to base.
life been boring.
i slp almost b4 11pm everyday cuz attachment make me tired.
really very tired.
week 4 report done.
Dr Forday came today.
he mess my logbk.
i'm so sad. n i got to re write.
he wan so many things.
so ma fan.
He wants us to do the draft headings, sub headings, sub sub headings by 2 weeks time.
how to think of so many.
sian.

i miss the 2 gals.
very long since i meet them.
sorry tt i didnt hve time for u 2.
attachment make me busy.
weekend muz acc own fren n bf.
so didnt ask u 2 out.
next week k.

celebrated cindy lim bdae last fri.
settlers' cafe.
a place to play games.
fun n laughters.
muz ask pat for photos.

bathing time.

2007-08-31T22:26:00.000+08:00

attachment week 1 is over!!
it been so tired for me.
working in lab is not easy.
i got 4-5labs. walk to n fro...
stand for some experiments.
only some can sit. cuz thee chairs around.
it been okie for me this week.
get to slack in the morning for 30mins to 1 hr.
after lunch is nv free.
frm 1plus or 2 all the way to 530 is nv free.
only morning is free cuz supervisor not here yet.

get to learn new things now.
i did ion chromatography experiments.
preparing litres n litres of cation n anion buffers...

DGGE, PCR... capture gel photos. so many.
n we can adjust the contrast, lightings etc for more than 1hr.
but is good cuz i get to it in a very cold air con lab.
haha... slack.

n guss wad it been very very long since i slp at 10plus.
tues to thurs my slping time is 1030.
so early. cuz i'm so tired after work
1hr 20mins to n fro.

mon i get to meet the fols.
gather them for ma la steamboat at bugis.
happy times with e gals. laughters...
i miss cindy lim n sharon.
finally get to meet them.

yuan bdae is coming.
i duno wad to buy for him.
wad he wan is far too ex.
got no money.
he wan a car n laptop.
hahaa. i simply cant afford.
plan to postpone his present till he need something.
army also cant wear nice things cuz either scratch or dirty.
no use buying now.
poor him gtot no present on his bdae.

2007-08-26T23:11:00.000+08:00

Exams are over!
think i did my best!
Goin for attachment so early tml.
havinf attachment frm 27Aug to 7 Dec.
poor me. all e way to ntu everyday.
1hr plus journey in.
meetings fols+fo4 for dinner tml.
yay. it been long time since i last meet them for dinner.

let see. fri after my paper, suppose to hve a picnic wif e gals.
in e end, Mr Dark cloud all over n cried!
Mr sunshine was not around tt day.
Picnic cancelled n town is where i spent my day.
lunch n dinner wif e gals.
n forced to watch 881. AMANDA wants to watch.
me n yiling giving a unwilling face.
n guess wad is balloon day for e 2 gals.
They bought balloons. n holding e balloons till they reach hme.
hearty balloon n kisses balloon for e both of them.
i didnt wan. i think is kinda of troublesome n no face.
they r small little 19 yrs old kids.
they want their childhood life.
holdin a balloon everywhere we go.

RATATOUILEE was nice. a smart chef mouse.
anyhow can cook n so do i!!
hahaha.
movie, lunch n dinner wif yuan...
he tired for e whole day.
crappy to make him awake.
quite a nonsense day we had.
haha.

I spent my sunday wif my buddy.
teaching him engineerin maths
cuz he having exam tml.
i teach him all i can n he absorb all he can.
hahaha. is hard for him to learn engineerin maths
cuz he doesnt noe e basic.
engineerin maths is abt a higher level of A maths.
He hate trigo wif e tan cos sin...
haha... i hate vectors n he can do vectors.
hope he can pass his exam. ya.

was unhappy today. cuz had a small scolding frm him.
not say scolding, is my fault actually.
sayin i no money but yet i can buy things.
he unhappy too. but he say no.
ate prata juz now wif him.
he playin his 2moons now.
still not slpin.

2007-08-24T00:41:00.000+08:00

Tml is my last paper for this sem!!
Jia you!
YAY!

Mugging hard

2007-08-20T23:37:00.000+08:00

today wake up feeling abit lazy to study.
ate lunch wif yuan. b4 he go work.
suddenly feel so slpy tt i couldnt study.
so decided to go out n study
meet jia wang at harbourfront
study frm 4-730. cold
we study hard. btn!
finished btn. revise again on thurs for fri exam!
tml study proteomics.
hope can get A for proteo.
jia you!

2007-08-11T19:08:00.000+08:00

yay!!! all my tests are over!!
left 2 exams on the 22 n 24Aug!!!
Jia you!!
ytd after e test i went out wuf yuan to vivo.
we ate hk kim gary cafe again!! i like yuan curry. nice
my noodles is nice too!
e drinks r nice too!
everyone shld try!

we watched GvMAX. first time in there.
e screen is big!
Rush hr 3 is nice.
we had some small arguements...
now we r happy tgt!

thurs was supposed to read n study LSSS cuz there test on fri...
but is national day so i didnt read much.
went out wif yiling!! n also her fren yen tinge.
shopping at bugis! i bought a cute stapler, n yiling too!
mine is lion, yiling one is a aligator.
we went to bras basah to watche NDP fireworks.
haha nice nice!!
we went to eat swensen ice cream tgt.
sticky chewy chocolate!

today didnt go out!
boring cuz dad nag at mum say i keep goin to watch movie
so i decided to stay at hme
if not i will be wif yuan, his fren bdae celebration!
sad. i'm bored.
i slacked e whole day at hme.
went over yuan hse juz now to apply cream for his mouth ulcer.
haha i told him is not painful,
but it turn out to be painful on him.
hahaha... told him muz ta han!! haha

things becum so much better after tt day.
both of us changed bit by bit.
happy us!
yuan bdae coming...
wad shld i make or buy for him?
any suggestions? tell me k?

starting attachment on the 27Aug at ntu IESE.
feel free to come all e way to ntu to look for me for lunch!
u can acc me back hme if u wan!!
come boon lay!! haha

2007-08-04T23:31:00.000+08:00

I'm sick for a few days alr.
Having sore throat n cough since thurs.
Fri, sore throat worsen. plus flu
Today, a bit fever, flu, cough, sore throat...
sneeze n sneeze.

I miss yuan today.
Ytd didnt get to meet him
cuz his fren got something to discuss wif him
today he got parade.so i whole day at hme
cuz i'm sick n i need to study.
i didnt study much today. headache. i onli finish writing my notes.
haven study it yet.
Tml muz study at least 3 chapters b4 i meet yuan.
meeting him for dinner n movie. yay!!!

met him juz now at my hse downstairs
he ask me to close my eyes again.
so i did n guess wad he gave me 6roses.
although is not properly wrapped n not bought by him
but i still touched cuz he got the effort to bring it all e way back from parade.
thanks my dear. u gave me surprise again.

next week i onli need to go sch on my tests day. wed n fri.
no sch on mon, tues n thurs.
but is not playing time.
is studying time. 2 tests. ahhhh....
LSSS i will just read thru the notes given by Dr Chai.
Fail e test i still pass the module.
n is onli 1.5credits for tt stupid module.

2007-08-02T11:17:00.000+08:00

today no sch... my IS module finished last week.
ytd juz had my btn common test 2.
i think i didnt explain much and my last qns i anyhow crap
think my result will not be very good.
tml still got pract test. A test tt dun test us on theory.
wad can we study? i really dunno.
is open bk but also no use. we dunno wad will come out
unlike other pract test tt we can study for it.
this one CANT!!!
i juz bring some notes n myself in tml.
no choice. is 20%. hope i can pass!!
god pls give me wisdom tml!
hope i noe how to do e qns.

next week still got 2 more tests coming.
wed n fri. weekend is burnt again.
got to study. no playin pls cindy!
sad. how i wish all the tests n exams r over.

2days after my exam will be attachment
from 27aug to 7dec. no freedom
everyday muz travel to ntu.
is soooooooo far. hate e journey.

been thinking of this for quite some time
wad shld i do after graduate?
further my studies in sci? or others?
but no exception if i study other courses.
how???
but if i nv study uni, my good grades will be wasted.
how???
shld i go work after graduate?
my dream is still far away.
yiling i got no capital.

how i wish i win the TOTO... 3million.
i can be millionaire! haha... dreaming.
no need to study anymore. hahaha....
enjoy life...
treat all my friends for a big big feast
buy them gifts...
buy yuan a car, house... he wanted those.

i watched simpsons movie. is so nice.
so funny. SPIDERPIG!!!
able to cover when naked. funny.

2007-07-21T22:22:00.000+08:00

School been busy for me.

lots of reports and presentations

Now got 3 reports due next week. ahhh

practical test, class tests all coming. die die

I hope i will study hard for it. too lazy nowadays.

going out wif yuan tml.

my popeye... here i come.
watching either vacancy or gangster 3 tml.

guess wad i did today. i queue wif yuan for 3.5hrs for DONUTS!!!

feel tt we r so crazy.

hahaha.

but e donuts r nice. really. can try to queue again.

hahaha. i saw 2 nice bags today. i want!!!

Next tues is our 4th mth together.

i feel tt time pass fast.

He on leave. dunno where shld we go.

any ideas ppl?

2007-07-07T00:42:00.001+08:00

i'm so sorry tt all my posts r do sad.
things had not ben too gd for me.
things will be better tml! haha.

2007-07-07T00:19:00.000+08:00

July hve juz started...
lots of sadness this week
had quarrels wif him over small matters.
upset tt he little bit angry with me
he promise he wont be so petty
but i dunno why this week is exception.
past one mth i can feel tt he is not so petty alr.
but this week, he petty again.

had 2 quarrels in 2 subsequent days.
things go wrong wif the 2 of us.
i'm exhausted by the deadlines.
yet he started e fire,
i'm sorry i nv bother abt u at ur hse.
busy doin my own things.
cannot get settled if things tt are due are not finished.
bad mood.

as for today, i mention something tt make u angry.
there nth for u to angry abt.
i tot u will be different frm e rest, u noe how i feel, wad i think.
but u dun today.
upset.
ur phone is off tt make me searching for u for e whole day.
i cant find u was terrible.
every now n then i call to see if i can reach u
but in the end u replied a msg tt upset me.
u dun let me explain.
n an angry tone tt u gave me during lect.
everything is settled now.
no more quarrels.
smile.

2007-06-29T23:19:00.000+08:00

went to watch transformer today.
with yuan, tiff, dennis n also hung n linus cuz they got nth to do also
a nice show. like it alot. tot it will be a boring show.
so now hung, linus, tiff n dennis saw yuan.
dunno wad they got to say on mon.

was very upset on a particular day tt i cried.
dunno why it make me so upset.
yuan told me his dad want him to study uni overseas
all e way to a country name russia.
his plan is to cont to study engineering
n his dad told him tt russia is e best at engineering.
if he leave, it will be 2 or more yrs.
n i'll be all alone in spore.
i dun wan tt to happen... in e end i cried.
i''m so afraid tt he will leave me alone
although we can web cam n he will fly back during holidays
but it will be different if he around wif me
someone to care n around when i need help etc.
is really a very big different.
he ask me to look for a local uni for me so tt he wont hve to go there
i looked up e net n realised there is not many sch offering engineering
tears started to flow again. cuz i noe most likely he will be goin there.

i gave him all e links ytd. n he found one tt is somehow okie.
he called his dad askin tt if tt sch is okie.
his dad ans him, if u dun decide on ur own, then i will decide
if his dad decide, then it will be russia.
without him wif me for 2 or more yrs will be terrible.
i cant image wad will happen to us in e 2yrs.
a new gf for him? distant between us?
when i think of it, i'm terrified.
i got no money to study overseas.
is too ex. my family dun hve e money but yuan dad hve.
onli he can support yuan overseas.

started talking to him again on tt topic.
i asked him too many times whether he will go overseas.
he say wont but i'm afraid. he became frustrated.
he was so fierce, complaining abt me, being scared of this n tt then nv do anything to it
he say onli noe scare, nth is done to remove e fear in me.
complain so many things tt i feel tt i'm such a lousy gf in his eyes.
so upset. very upset.

today he said sorry. i didnt blame him for complaining.
as i'm really not a good gf.
i nv change when he ask me to.
now everything is fine(i think)
he most likely will be studying in spore after army.

2007-06-24T00:55:00.000+08:00

i'm so bored at hme today.yuan go parade
yiling go out, manda got dinner,
poly frens all busy rushing reports...
no one to acc me. i eat, slp n watch tv at hme today.
call yuan till his phone no batt. hahaha.
wad to do no one is free lucky he is free to tok to me.
nowadays i hardly can slp early. i cant slp.
tt why came here to blog.
updates of photos

2007-06-23T00:33:00.000+08:00

how i been this week?

i so happy to see everyone on thurs.

Yy, thanks for ur presents, love it alot.

i so glad to see joelle back.

so glad to see linus, hung, sharon, cindy lim, johnny, pat, sg

celebrated joelle bdae on thurs at swensen, west mall.

took lots of photos..

n i goin to blow up my class grp photos

so nice to be tgt wif them again.

it been 3 mths plus since we ever meet like this.

so happy to see them. really very happy.

today met yuan at my hse there.

he ask me to close my eyes

becuz he say his fren tell him something abt eyes.

in e end i open my hse got surprises frm him.

i was so happy. is e present but e thought tt counts.

he rmb wad i like n wad i wan.
he gave me a necklace n a jigsaw globe. nice.

he love n dote me.

sometime i feel tt i'm really fortunate to hve him.

a very nice guy tt i love.

2007-06-18T23:00:00.000+08:00

erm let see wad hve i been doin these few days.
erm last tues n wed went to work at OG.
realise tt jason zhi yuan n jia jia not around le.
they went to other outlets.
tues was so boring. arfah n cheng cheng off.
wed was much better wif their accompany.

thurs went to sch for some stupid prof talk.
after tt went yuan hse n rot.
he got off on thurs n fri.
got his accompany for 2 days. so happy.
fri we went out e whole day.
went ms to watch fantastic 4. e ppl gave us e last row wif couple seats.
haha. erm a first time experience sitting at e last row.
didnt sit there b4. always got e 5th row onwards.
e show was okie. but is juz a show not real life.
in e world there are no such ppl.
a rocky man can hve a gf. hhaaha.
b4 movie we went around walking,
i bought a cheap jeans frm giordano. 50% off.
yuan paid half of it for me.
went diva saw a necklace. but nv buy
no discount. i say wait for e sale.
haha. went over to ps for dinner
n i help my sis buy 2 pants frm mothercare
but i need to call her almost 4 times. haaha

sat went out wif my sis
shopping time wif her.
she bought alot but at least she buy me shorts.
green shorts. i love e shorts.
after tt yiling called n say something happen
so we met up wif manda to orchard by yiling bro car.
we were queueing up for fish n co n i saw my long nv see fren sg
haha. miss all them alot. but like we nv meet up for so long.
goin to see them soon. been waiting for e time to cum.

sun went to church in e morning
after tt went over yuan hse for lunch
his ah ma cooked noodles.
erm a special noodle i nv eat b4.
watch his fav, ultraman movie.
rot n slack at his hse. wif his cousins n auntie.

today, went to e bank wif him.
i need to deposit money n he wanna open another acc.
he applied for his debit card.
haha. told him i will secretly take his card n use. haha.
first thing to do is to learn his signature. haahaa

wad to do tml?
no idea.
he working tml.

2007-06-14T00:37:00.000+08:00

yay!!! i finished my common test.
BTN is a very long paper
not enuff time. n i see e wrong qns
dunno wad i'm thinking, askin for mass n heat transfer
i think of oxygen transfer n write all e ans. dunno wad wrong wif my brain.
i noe e ans de but i see e qns wrongly. 8marks gone. my A gone also
cuz some calculations also dunno how to do. 8marks again.
nvm is juz 15% so work hard for the exam!!

now is playing time but yet i got to work after my btn test.
work for 2 days. till 930. legs tired.
no money. in need of money so muz work.
tml still hve to go back to sch. poor me.

i want go shopping but no money
my river island jeans
my havanas... no money
sad.

sat job is postponed. dun hve to wake up early.
fri watching fantastic 4 wif yuan. ask him go shopping.

2007-06-04T23:59:00.000+08:00

Today is my first common test paper. Proteomics.
the paper is rather easy but each qns got high weightage but only few pts to tok abt.
so crap throughout e whole paper.
think shld be okie. next tues BTN. i doubt it will be an easy paper.CYC.
lots of calculations n theory abt all e reactors n fermentation.
start my revision for btn tml.

went out wif yiling in e afternn. shopping n watching shrek 3 wif manda too at night.
suppose to buy tickets at ps but yiling think tt cathay may hve tickets n is cheaper.
in e end, no more seats for e 3 of us. so landed up we went to AXS machine to buy e tickets.
we went over to far east n saw t-shirts. mi n yiling bought one each. cheaper than hula n co.
hahaha. good deal.

suppose to go yuan fren bdae chalet
but in e end he say his fren is not cutting cake today so no point goin
tml he got parade so cannot go down.
in e end i got hme heard his unhappy voice
dunno wad happen. did i do something wrong?

2007-05-24T17:45:00.000+08:00

It been so so long since i ever blog.
I got no time to blog.
Sch was so busy...
FYP project...
goin out wif frens n yuan.

let me see. wad shld i blog...
sis wedding is coming.
next wed i no goin to sch. cuz is her wedding.
hahaha... Thurs is vesak day. Holiday!!!

today is e 2nd month tgt.
thru out this 2 mths there r quarrels
there r happiness... but most of all wif him i'm happy.

i got a new t shirt imported frm US
i design a new pair of shoes
hehe... now i got no money...
cannot shop shop shop le.
no work no money

last week went to celebrate yiling bdae.
we went timbre at armenian st.
we ate pizza n fish n chips.
sang bdae song at coffee club.
haahaa our usual bdae hang out place.
when we were goin back, rain came.
we cant go back. no one to rescue
sz dun wan to fetch, yiling bro slpin, my sis at bedok...
manda last resort...her dad. so her dad fetch us back. haha

common test coming. i haven study much. die
next week wedding... no time to study. die die...

2007-05-05T19:44:00.000+08:00

went vivocity wif yuan today.
i still cant find shirt for sis. no more le
so she decided not to buy le.
she need pants frm mothercare. haha
but she didnt pass mi her card. sian. muz help her buy one more time.

i wan to find my everlast shoes. but vivo dun hve tt colour also.
yuan went candy empire to but caramel choco.
he fall in love wif e choco i buy.
haha pink lady not nice. another brand nicer.
we planning to eat hong kong kim gary cafe next time.
He wants to try e vinco donut. but too long queue so decided to buy another time.

he ask mi to go out wif him tml wif his frens. go bowling
but i need to acc my parents n sis to buy wedding clothings.
so cannot acc him le.

2007-05-05T00:21:00.000+08:00

today is shopping day. i cant find sis clothings anywhere.
tml my last place to find is vivocity.
today i bought a key purse for mummy as mother's day present.
i bought a new esprit jacket too. yay!!!
i wan tt everlast shoes but dun hve my size le. sad
muz see whether other outlet still hve.
it cost 33.9 for tt pair of shoes. but i like it.
muz wait for e stock to come.
new slippers... i need too.
my slippers is giving my feet blisters. so painful
yuan say he buying for mi. hehe. yay!!!
yiling bought a new pair of shoes frm topshop.
i lend her my vest. she want it.

we walked frm place to place today. so tired.
legs breaking. haha

2007-05-01T13:39:00.000+08:00

today is labour day!!
that mean is holiday!
i love holidays...

goin to watch spiderman wif yuan later.
haahaa. helping jie jie to buy topshop clothings later.
next time i can wear also. lalalalala

2007-04-29T21:22:00.000+08:00

kinda of boring this week cuz i hve to go sch
haha. erm i receive one more present frm my cousin
he gave mi perfume. i like my new perfume.
nice smell.
i wanna get slippers soon.
my slippers hurt mi. goin to throw away soon
i got my forever 21 shirt alr. ship all e way here.
n my new earrings, love it.

sat was my most enjoyable day.
i went east coast park
cycling wif yuan.
haha. so long nv cycle, it so nice to cycle ytd
although my butt hurts.haha
first time i cycle wif him.
we sat by the beach. we brought our mat.
so comfy facing the sea n e sea breeze
sands....shells....n most of all him.

after i went back, manda n ling called for ice cream
telling mi they hve surprises for mi
they gave mi a pooh keychain...love them
we ate swensen ice cream at airport n POPEYE...
Airport was so cold. 12plus then reach hme n he was unhappy.

2007-04-21T22:16:00.000+08:00

My bdae hve ended.
let see wad i receive this yr.
A bag frm GAP
A wallet frm GAP
2 bouqets of sunflowers(8 stalks in total)
2 Baby pooh
A voodoo doll
A small bottle perfume
A necklace
3 shirts
Thanks everyone for blessing mi on my bdae.

how i spend my bdae?
on 13 Apr with den
on 15 Apr with manda n yiling
on my actual day wif yuan
in sch wif tiff dennis LJ
on 15 Apr we went Holland V
we ate essential brew cafe
not bad la
atmosphere quite nice
but not a good place to take photos
sang bdae song at coffee club wif my ice cream cake
hehehe

on my actual day
celebrate wif tiff dennis LJ at KAP mac they bought a slice of mango cake for mi
sang song there
after tt meet yuan at 7
went to take my bdae cake he ordered
we went vivo sushi tei to hve our dinner
took the sentosa express train in
we went to e beach. he light e candle n sang song again.
hehe 3songs sang this yr.
happy 19th bdae.
first yr i celebrated my bdae wif someone special
we meet late therefore didnt celebrate much but then
i'm satisfied.
Wonderful bdae this yr.

met sharon on ytd.

i miss her so much

talk alot of things wif her

dennis wanted to cum meet us

but in e end nv.

he say he miss sharon

i told sharon

sharon laughed.

hahaha

2007-04-17T13:07:00.000+08:00

TML is my BIRTHDAY!!!!
yayayaya!!!

2007-04-14T00:03:00.000+08:00

today is william bdae. happy bdae boy!.

wished him when he's online.

haha...

guess wad happen today at ntu.

my supervisor n almost all e staff went for some meeting

they locked e office. we cant get in.

sat at e stairs for half an hr b4 someone came back.

he rescue us. haha.

while sitting at e stairs, we tok alot of things.

edwin say he damn sian cuz he hve to stay back cuz he failed his modules.

poor him. no choice but to overcome it.

today went to meet Den at city hall.

he say he got something to pass to mi.

so i meet him for dinner.

we went to ms fins'lobster.

not very nice but at least is juz to try e food there.

we we walked around ms then he say he wanna go tcc drink

so we walked over to bugis.

erm is seem far but then in fact is quite near actually.

we say e hot air balloon DHL.

he asked mi whether i'm afraid of height

i say i dun think so.

in e end both of us sat e HOT AIR BALLOON 150metres high up...

get to gain some experience sitting e balloon. haha

fun n nice view of singapore.

he gave mi sunflowers which he noe is my fav.
thanks alot. n a voodoo doll. cute.

2007-04-07T10:42:00.000+08:00

wonderful day at e NIGHT SAFARI!

2007-04-06T14:11:00.000+08:00

let see... on mon as usual go back to ntu to do my sample testings.
unable to do EPS cuz e spectrophotometer is spoilt.
by wed it was fixed. did my testing for mon n wed on thurs.
guess wad i copied the wrong results. die. email my supervisor abt it alr.
dunno wad she will say. she suddenly seem so strict, saying i shld prepare my report everyweek
analyse the data n plot e graphs. saying i shld read more literature. ya i'm reading n i'm doin my lit review too. but this project is consider totally new to mi, i didnt study on bioreactors,membrane, wastewater removal etc, i did on microbio molecular bio etc which only some i noe. so it take mi time to understand all those things. suddenly got an uneasy feeling after reading her email ytd.

we went NYDC for dinner on manda bdae wif sz n ling.
after tt we went to night safari.
my first time there.
i like e animal show.
but then i got so many mosquito bites when i was taking the tram.
hhaaha still rmb i was so scare of the flying bats. all hanging above us.
tt day was fun. enjoyed it.

met yuan on tues cuz he took leave.
we went amk hub cuz i didnt go there b4...
nth much there. dun ever go there again.
n we found an atm tt can onli withdraw a min of 200bucks.
haha... we say is for rich ppl.
we went over to clarke quay The Central.
nth much there too. boring.
we sat by the river, saw the bungee jump tt cause 40 over bucks.
he wanted to bring there for a seat, but i dun wan cuz it's too expensive.
we ate "hokkaido ice cream" at central. not very nice actually.

My bdae is coming soon... haha...

2007-04-01T22:36:00.000+08:00

how i spent my time?
mon till fri at ntu... fri met up wif manda n ling
ling came back frm japan le
she bought mi an elmo coin purse
i like it alot.thanks gal
she gave mi a handphone charm which donald duck.
cute.
stayed at manda hse on fri. ate supper wif them n jason(manda fren)
he drove us. honda car. big.
chit chat till 3plus then slp
i wake up at 9. cant slp.
lunch i ate crabs steam fish n stew wings.
so delicious.

went out wif yuan after tt. went hme to bath first.
we went to tampines ikea. yay after so long i finally eat my meatballs n wing.
we helped manda sis to buy e plastic bag holder.
watched number 23, erm it seem scary during e thriller but in fact is not scary at all.
erm a surprise ending. didnt expect it.

2007-03-27T18:24:00.000+08:00

Watched Mr Bean show on sat.
a nice show but it not wad i expected.
tot it will b very funny...
i went bugis shaw to watch.
didnt watch there b4 so jun yuan brought me there.

After watching, he ask mi to acc him to his fren's bdae chalet
where? east coast.
at first do not wan to... but he said all his frens r not goin
so if he go, he will b all alone
bdae boy wont b only entertaining him.
so i followed him.
in the end his phone kept ringing when we were on e way there
all his frens r goin.
so i shldnt hve followed.

come to think of it, i dunno wad happen
began to develop feelings for him all of a sudden
kind of like him.
e story didnt come to an end.

yiling is comin back on thurs... 2 more days.
miss her.

oh tiff told mi time table is out
i went to look at it.
mon n tues got to go back ntu.
wed to fri r long days for mi till 5
boring.

2007-03-23T12:46:00.000+08:00

went out wif e 2 gals ytd...
instead of watching movie, we went to shop.
walking all around town...
up n down...
they bought mi a mango shirt
i love e shirt
thank alot.
saw beloved william at taka...
tok for quite long... we took photos also.
update later...
i love e song "way back into love"
n happen to tell them e favour i did.
n they say i dun seem happy to them
but it doesnt hurt mi anymore
i'm not upset le..

my supervisor goin back china to settle family matters
she wont b here for 2 weeks
pray hard tt my system performs
dun make mi suffer
no blockage, no leakage, no fouling etc...
stay happy cindy!

2007-03-20T11:49:00.000+08:00

so many days passed... project everyday...
wad to do... reports submission...
wanted to ask them out on fri but quite a few cant so canceled
fri didnt go prawning wif e 2 gals
i hve a headache...
so terrible.

sat went to watch the messenger wif jun yuan.
erm it was e sound tt scare mi.
killing n killing!!!
Vivocity is big but nth much to walk.
we went to the pet safari...
i saw rocky breed...that remind mi of him again.
so upset.

told jun yuan we r impossible
cuz i find tt i dun like him.
is juz comfortable being wif him
treat him as a good fren maybe
i noe he upset.

something happen on sun.
tt will b a secret between mi n him.
i trust him. without any tot
did e favour he asked.

2007-03-10T22:44:00.000+08:00

today went out wif jun yuan...
we went ms n suntec...
IT fair is so crowded...went to find yiling...
guess wad e gal say to jun yuan...
muz treat cindy good k...
i was like..........

we watched music n lyrics at ms...
erm a nice show... i like e song they composed...
dinner wif him at sakae...
e queue is long but we waited...
he wanna bring mi to haagen daz for fondue...
but i'm full...today got no appetite...
dunno why...
thanks for everything today...
i enjoyed it...

on e way back...lots of things came to my mind...
i noe he treat mi good...
but juz somehow i dun hve e same feeling i hve for someone...
i juz dun hve any passion...
i dunno how to say...
things confused me...
i feel like telling him not to waste time on me...
but i'm afraid to upset him...
i wasnt ready for anything...
past make mi cant focus...
i prefer to b alone now...w/o anyone...
cant bring myself to love n care abt someone anymore...
dishearted...

2007-03-08T22:21:00.000+08:00

went to sch on wed...
in e end i got to do 3 reports...
ahhh...hate to write reports...
1000words for 2 reports, another one is 250...
wad to write?

jerry msg mi 2 days ago... asking mi to watch movie on wed
but i dun wanna go out till too late cuz i got to go ntu on e following day.
but in fact i think tt not e main reason...
is that i dunno i wanna go ant...
i dun wanna make myself upset again.
i'm afraid tt it will be harder for mi to forget him after seeing him.
it may be a simple gatherin but i think too far...
then movie becum sat but i ytd told him i cant make it.
cuz yiling n manda tell mi not to go...
i dunno whether to go ant...
i'm totally confused.
wad shld i do?

someone is waiting for mi...
i told him i still cant forget jerry
so i'm so CONFUSED!!!
how?

2007-03-06T11:50:00.000+08:00

My daily routine...
all e way to ntu...
measurements.... ammonia, nitrite, pH, height of biogas, TOC n TN.
mon wed fri i will be busier... cuz i still need to do EPS testing, MLSS n methane% (GC).
every 2 days i got to fill up e feed...

kind of bored of wad i'm doin now...
wad to do, i'm under environmental sci...
all abt water!!!
tml having briefing in sch on project...
dun hve to come to ntu...hahaha

oh i got my new hair cut
sis gave mi a Hp mp3 player
a new cute coin pouch
a new vest frm zara
a new top frm topshop..
i love all... ahaha

went to find my colleagues at OG
they all ask mi e first ans is......
why u cut ur hair?
i prefer u wif long hair...
wif long hair nicer...
haha...
is okie i can still keep long hair, since hair will grow yea!!!

2007-03-03T00:03:00.000+08:00

today i felt so happy...
saw all my bunch of good frens again...
separating is e worst thing...
i hate being alone, all of my frens r separated frm mi.
having them around is always fun,
love all of them.
we walk frm wheelock place to shawhse
n decided to eat crystal jade.
everywhere is crowded.
joelle is leaving tml morning...
will miss her alot...
without her around it will b so quiet,
no more her laughters n accompany.
seng gim dun b sad...
we lao yu sheng at crystal jade.
haha...so funny...
n e thing is pat took lots of candid shots...
n is when we r eating...so ugly...
took lots of photos n i'm so happy...
happiest day of e week...
i juz love their accompany.
we took jumping shots n we perspires...
so sticky n tired jumping for so many times.
i enjoyed myself!

photos wif my new hair...
hahahaha

2007-03-01T14:00:00.000+08:00

start of fyp...
first day, supervisor on leave so i left 2 hrs later after domeone brief me
day 2, she is back...
but i slack e almost e whole day
online chattin n surf net...
lookin n reading the papers...
day 3, start to do some measurements
TOC, nitrite n ammonia measurements.
pH, amt of biogas produced etccc...
day 4, which is today...mornin did measurements
later goin to learn another test...EPS testing.
i'm doin solo project instead of partnering with tiff..
she is alone too...

IESE is full of china ppl...
all speak in chinese.
i muz learn how to listen to them.
if not i cant write my report.
reporting time is 930-10
anytime within this period
suppose to end at 545 except for fri 515,
but we can go off early if things r done.
so nice n my lunch break is 1130 to 2,
sometime will delay abt 1/2 hr...
my supervisor wont cum back so early
so i can slack there until 3
lit review due in 2weeks time
briefting next week in sch

ytd went movie wif jun yuan after my project.
nv watch norbit so we watched it ytd
a funny show but think i'm tired so didnt laugh much.
watch until abt 11plus... super tired.
fall asleep fast.

2007-02-24T13:08:00.000+08:00

This is wad one of e horoscope i read say:
Your brain is telling you to hold on to what you've got,
but your heart is telling you that it's time to let them go.
Can you take the middle path instead?
It'll be a tricky act,
but you can find a reasonable mean.

it in fact wad i m now... whether to let go or to hold on...
after a good cry ytd, i decided to let go n give up.
frm now on there will b no longer him in my dictionary.
i dun wan to make myself feel upset anymore.
joelle ask mi if i really sure of giving up
i replied ya, dun wanna hve a burden anymore.
so ya no one bothering mi now.
i'm living in my own life now.
no one interfering, no one disturbing.

2007-02-23T11:40:00.000+08:00

today woke up wif a bad dream...
dreamt of everyone ignoring mi...
upset mi so much...
i woke up crying...
started to think of something...
make mi cry even worst...
e fear i ever had is ppl ignoring mi...
then still got such a dream...
i pour all my tears out cuz i'm too upset
until i cant control my tears...
there's a action tt i wont forget...
this make mi upset e most...
i regretted... truly regretted...
i juz dun wan things to get worst...
pretend i didnt say anything...
i give up... truly give up...
things drifted means it hve drifted...
no longer will b e same...
i told myself not to cry but i still cry...
lousy mi...

why i didnt go OIAP?
if not i can hve a 3 1/2 mths break from all these...
today will b an unhappy day...cuz i hve an unhappy start...

2007-02-23T00:59:00.000+08:00

met my sec sch classmates today...
we went for lao yu sheng!!
hahaha...fun!!
miss all of them cuz we seldom meet..
everyone have their own frens to hang out with...
Mr Tan is here too...i miss him too...so glad to see him
he retired alr...hope he will stay happy always...
manda havin exam tml...so study hard yea...
they came over to my hse after eating...
play cards again...
but then i was pissed off by their "paisehness"...
juz becuz they nv bring oranges they dun wanna accept e ang bao...
is juz a small blessing frm my mum...
so forced them to take it...
ask them play cards they also pai seh...
i juz love shi yong n jia hao... too bad jing heng went back
if not he will b so eager to play...
then atmosphere will b happier...
but anyway is over we still hve a great time...
love all of u..

slp for 6hrs after i came back frm chalet...
dunno why during chalet juz got an upset feeling.
tiff ask mi if i'm okie, i say ya i'm okie...but in fact i dunno wad to say.
things like started to change...
we began to drift apart... nth much to talk...
tt e sad thing...i wont want things to turn out like tt...
so frm e start i shldnt tell him?
i'm giving up le...
since we r separating into 2 different semester...
i will forget soon...
i will miss everyone of u...
love u ppl...

2007-02-22T06:26:00.000+08:00

today is my class chalet...
at down town east...
rm no G1726...
blogging time is 630am...
haha...all of them slping now yet i'm blogging... haha
i cant slp when i'm in chalet de...
if not i will feel giddy... cuz i'm lack of slp...
so i chose not to slp...
i got to wake them up at 930
cuz we got to book out at 1030...

frm e start...
we meet at 2 to buy bbq stuff...
in e end most of us reached at almost 3...
haha...poor patrick went to ntuc to look for things first...
bbq as usual... photos update later... wif sharon n tiff...
after tt a series of games...vodka is e forfit...
sing yan been e reddest among all of them...
followed by hung n dennis... haha

after tt w went to e park for a stroll n ghost stories telling session...
almost all of them feel eerie n ran back...
so i still left 3hrs to go... wad can i do next?

2007-02-20T23:15:00.000+08:00

oh today went over to manda hse for visiting...
got 6 ang bao...cuz her dad frens came n i'm there...
haha...yiling n manda came over my place too!!

tml goin chalet... yay!!! have fun...
sat then go to my dad side for visiting...
ang bao...is my main motive...
thurs meeting my sec sch frens to lao yu sheng...

can i noe ur ans?
juz dunno why...
although i noe wad will b ur ans,
but juz wan to noe frm u...
i will not b upset no matter wad....
be strong my dear cindy...

2007-02-18T23:26:00.000+08:00

today is e first day of chinese new yr...
happy chinese new yr too all!!
nth much happen today...
as usual went to grandma hse for visiting...
lots of things to laugh abt...
tml will be a slackin day at hme...
maybe goin to chalet on 21 feb...
goin to hve fun!!!

2007-02-17T00:21:00.000+08:00

Exams r finally over!!!
i m so happy...
bought a new belt today!!!
n i saw manda blog...
she hve such a wonderful v day...
wif such a nice bf...manda i envy u...
roses chocolates romantic dinner cable car...
so lovely...
i felt so upset now...
is okie my dear cindy i can still b as happy as bee
nth can make mi upset...
i'm strong ya...

2007-02-14T13:49:00.000+08:00

Happy Valentine's Day to all!!!
love u ppl...

all alone on v day...

2007-02-13T18:01:00.000+08:00

yay!!! my hatred ccta is over... n i think i can get A le... haha
left wif instru but i got no mood to study le...
last paper... jia you cindy cannot b lazy....
but i'm juz too lazy to study tt...
tml is V day n my dad's bdae...
advance happy bdae dad!!

only my pooh will be with mi always...
no one else...

2007-02-10T18:40:00.000+08:00

yay i finished 2 papers alr... left 2... tues paper is my hatred.
can someone help mi to study haha...
think is impossible
this yr v day i'm all alone again.
but all alone at hme studying
dun feel like studyin at hme
maybe go outside to study...
anyone wanna acc?

my acmb A gone due to one 10marks qns
i did wrongly, forgot wad coding strand means
to copy e thing or to translate
when i step out of e room i remembered...
is okie, i still got ABC to get an A.
jia you for instru n ccta!!!